А (I)
I ON THE LEFT
1. А. (she), 28; artist, musician.
2. Belarus -> Poland
3. 3 November 2021
4. It was terrifying to wait for when 'they' would come for me (note: A. is referring to the arrest).
5. I feel like I don't exist, and a catastrophe is looming over all of humanity. I have eczema on my hands and feet, my blood pressure is 140/100, and my pulse is 110. After migrating, I was diagnosed with 'bipolar disorder,' and during this time, my Tourette's symptoms intensified.
6. I miss my mom, dad, and our country house. I miss my mom's garden and my dad's forest. I miss our cat Tutsi, but she didn't wait for me and passed away. I miss my friend Andrei, but he got sentenced to 7 years in prison. I miss my brother and nephews. I miss the secret lake and my mom's tea cottage.
7. I would only return to visit my mom and dad, but to live there - never in my life. Nightmares haunt me, where I'm back in Belarus and can't leave.
8. My family and I tried to migrate to America: my mom, dad, my brother, and me. It didn't work out, and we had to return. We couldn't extend our visas.
9.I lived in Paris, and it was the best time of my life. It felt like I had a chance to fulfill my dreams, and the world was smiling at me, and there's a song about it: Horrors - Still life.
My childhood was wonderful: we lived in America, and Dad played Abba - Mama Mia in the car, the sun, we're going for pizza after my music classes, and then we swim in the pool.
The country house, like a separate world, not in Belarus, but in my mind. I always 'migrated' there. I never felt well or comfortable in Belarus. I always saw what was happening but felt like a small bug. There's a song about this country house: Florence and the Machine - Patricia.
Two songs about my experience in Poland: David Bowie - This Is not America and Anastasia Rydlevskaya - Bipolar.
France: La Femme - It’s time to Wake Up
USA: America - Horse with no name
Poland: EABS meets Jaubi - Sun
Belarus: Palina - Месяц
2. Belarus -> Poland
3. 3 November 2021
4. It was terrifying to wait for when 'they' would come for me (note: A. is referring to the arrest).
5. I feel like I don't exist, and a catastrophe is looming over all of humanity. I have eczema on my hands and feet, my blood pressure is 140/100, and my pulse is 110. After migrating, I was diagnosed with 'bipolar disorder,' and during this time, my Tourette's symptoms intensified.
6. I miss my mom, dad, and our country house. I miss my mom's garden and my dad's forest. I miss our cat Tutsi, but she didn't wait for me and passed away. I miss my friend Andrei, but he got sentenced to 7 years in prison. I miss my brother and nephews. I miss the secret lake and my mom's tea cottage.
7. I would only return to visit my mom and dad, but to live there - never in my life. Nightmares haunt me, where I'm back in Belarus and can't leave.
8. My family and I tried to migrate to America: my mom, dad, my brother, and me. It didn't work out, and we had to return. We couldn't extend our visas.
9.I lived in Paris, and it was the best time of my life. It felt like I had a chance to fulfill my dreams, and the world was smiling at me, and there's a song about it: Horrors - Still life.
My childhood was wonderful: we lived in America, and Dad played Abba - Mama Mia in the car, the sun, we're going for pizza after my music classes, and then we swim in the pool.
The country house, like a separate world, not in Belarus, but in my mind. I always 'migrated' there. I never felt well or comfortable in Belarus. I always saw what was happening but felt like a small bug. There's a song about this country house: Florence and the Machine - Patricia.
Two songs about my experience in Poland: David Bowie - This Is not America and Anastasia Rydlevskaya - Bipolar.
France: La Femme - It’s time to Wake Up
USA: America - Horse with no name
Poland: EABS meets Jaubi - Sun
Belarus: Palina - Месяц
***RUS***
1. А. (она), 28 лет; художница.
2. Беларусь -> Польша
3. 3 ноября 2021
4. Страшно было ждать, когда за мной “придут”.
5. Мне кажется, меня не существует, и на все человечество надвигается катастрофа. У меня экзема по рукам и ногам, среднее давление 140/100 и пульс 110. После миграции мне поставили диагноз “биполярное расстройство”, за это время усилились проявления Туретта.
6. Скучаю по маме, папе и даче, по маминому саду, по папиному лесу, по кошечке Тутси, но она не дождалась меня и умерла. Скучаю по другу Андрею, но его посадили на 7 лет в тюрьму. По брату и племянникам. По секретному озеру, по чайному домику мамы.
7. Вернулась бы только, чтобы навестить маму с папой, а жить - никогда в жизни. Мне снятся кошмары, что я опять живу в Беларуси и не могу уехать.
8. Мы с семьей пытались мигрировать в Америку: мама, папа, я и брат. Не получилось, пришлось вернуться. Не удалось продлить визу.
1. А. (она), 28 лет; художница.
2. Беларусь -> Польша
3. 3 ноября 2021
4. Страшно было ждать, когда за мной “придут”.
5. Мне кажется, меня не существует, и на все человечество надвигается катастрофа. У меня экзема по рукам и ногам, среднее давление 140/100 и пульс 110. После миграции мне поставили диагноз “биполярное расстройство”, за это время усилились проявления Туретта.
6. Скучаю по маме, папе и даче, по маминому саду, по папиному лесу, по кошечке Тутси, но она не дождалась меня и умерла. Скучаю по другу Андрею, но его посадили на 7 лет в тюрьму. По брату и племянникам. По секретному озеру, по чайному домику мамы.
7. Вернулась бы только, чтобы навестить маму с папой, а жить - никогда в жизни. Мне снятся кошмары, что я опять живу в Беларуси и не могу уехать.
8. Мы с семьей пытались мигрировать в Америку: мама, папа, я и брат. Не получилось, пришлось вернуться. Не удалось продлить визу.
