Pure (she/they), 36; Mother | Artist (always mother first)
South Africa -> Germany
October 2022
South Africa has been rated one of the most unsafe spaces for women to exist in the world. The rising rape and murders of woman and children has made it quite a scary place to live. Existing in a perpetual state of anxiety and unsafety brought me to Berlin.
It's strange, on the one hand I'm grateful for this time of ease, calm and spaciousness that my nervous system is experiencing as Berlin is in some ways safer than home. But the implications of existing as a black femme bodied person in Europe unsettles me on a physical and spiritual level. I've experienced moments of displacement more than I can count and experiencing the development of Germany through the colonial lens as an African is a heavy observation to witness first hand.
I miss the warmth of strangers and simply being on ancestral soil.
I am going back. My artist residency ends soon and freelancing here as a single parent without stable income is a gamble I'm not sure I can take.